What do you call a man if he is always stopped midway in his work throughout his life, year, after year?
Why, God why?
Not all, but the one’s that stings and could have given me a good start, or shove ..
In the end, semua tue ada hikmahnya la tue ..
Kenapa, there are people at works or in biz, dengki and tried to pummel me ..I think, they will pummel and crush anybody,anything that goes against them and what they want ..
..those people were hurting ..because they didn’t know any better. For me to be that recipient, or at the receiving ends of that many blows ..was a gift. Gifts ..mcm lompat kelas ..
If I was not good, meaning that if I didn’t work hard, I couldn’t have been able to keep rebuilding my life, again and again ..it’s craziness ..but that’s my lot. Thank you
I am not nothing. I am good, more than talented, I put in my due efforts ..and for splits of seconds, it feels like they keep cutting me down, snatching my due opportunities…tp, I seemed to remember that perhaps, maybe, maybe I was recoursed to save me from bigger mishaps ..and avoiding me becoming a total miscreant
Allah swt yg empunya segala apa yg ada, di langit dan di bumi ..
As I marvel at this, memang Allah swt works in mysterious ways. Siapalah kita utk mentakwil segalanya ..
Nothing went as planned, but the thing is, I never much planned. It was like, drowning, baru nak belajar berenang, a big wave datang menggodak ..the other time, a shark, jelly fish ..stinking stinging jelly fishes ..was I shipwrecked, why was I shipwrecked..the thing, is I didn’t have time to ponder much cos ..oh look, a 100 foot tropical wave …yippie ..again! By this time, I am surprised at my own self that I still shrilled and quackedat the sight of new,y i pending doom aka next big wave..yg tak bagi warning apa ..well, whatdayaexpect ..namanya lautan luas..everybody is kicking kicking..swimming swimming ..while still alive la kan
These years, belajar memasak, taking care of myself, so that I can make a climb back ..was a struggle, but I kinda enjoy this. Bootstrapping..and living in the moment.
Trying not to go insane. Every fucking year since I graduated, I met with none a few but with a bunch of psychopaths. Oh God, if I had known ..I would have run away, I could have like teleported ..without a trace ..scrambled..and pack up my things with no regret ..instead, sacrificial lambs sangat …wisdom earned sgt ..tp, jumpa jugok, hahaha ..x brp cerdik jugok, kdg2 nak avoid tp kdg2 kena redah je ..hoping for minimal damage ..tur blom narcissists ke and et al ..
That’s why org kate, bila org baik, ala baik, mcm kita2 mmg selalu kena zoomed wal targetted oleh psychopath nie, diorang menang. Tak menunggu psychopath, an ounce pun dah cukup, nama je org jahat, with us alone, mmg kita je slalu kalah. A fact
Tapi, kalau kita band up, together, bersatu. We can do something. Its survival for the human kind, and the population, for the sake of our own species, we don’t need them, you know, in our future gene pool
Love love jugak. But they must be stopped. Incarcerate them, spy masyarakat tak diganggu ketenteraman hati n jiwa ..hingga abadi
Some people are born with eye sight problems. Some, young, robust, world at their feet one day, got the rug pulled out under them ..met with accidents or catastrophe..losing their limbs, loved ones ..
Life is full of suffering. It is inevitable. But, just like the Buddhist teachings, we have to find the happiness within. Islam, defines and clarifies it further by encouraging us to find peace, be at peace
Peace – monger
Kpd dato’2, datin and org yg tak berkenamaan, that screwed me, I hope you find your happiness and the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow to your hearts’ Delights
The down time that I had to go through was painful but crucial for me to grow spiritually. To learn the value of life, love and friendship. Taking the time for myself and to do things that matters, that makes me happy, that makes me be at peace.
My finances are totally ruinious by any standard, thanks to you, but zi’ve had a few rough awakenings myself about the value of money, how to stretch it and live with what is left ..which is still a lot to be thankful for. These beautiful and often free things are big gifts that consoled me, and to think I didn’t had a heart attack like a previous director at 35 was a big relief on its own..
It fired up in me a sense of purpose, not to fight you, to revenge ..but to reach out to those who are prone to go through the same mishaps..let me sound and rattle on like a fool, but I know my tribe ..
13 years ..started with the sales manager who threatened to quit if the MD didn’t fire me ..the MD fired me, I could had had a career as a biomedical engineer, think about THAT!
Instead, I founded my calling, one of it anyway ..doing PR, then mrktg.
I don’t mind being a biomedical engineer. It could have been okay, but rezeki x ada, so made do. Wasn’t I courageous enough, brave to do that jump, leap of faith? Giler
Then, bila kena so called mutually part ways, thinking of how the people will bad mouth me, EVEN if I was innocent, I prayed to God utk rezeki. Mmg sufferings yg dilalui. But to survive, I cuba bangun lagi, apa nak malu, I tak buat salah ..so I cuba, deep down scared jugak, knowing how cruel and corrupt the corporate world is
Fighting to survive in the merest glimpse in the corporate world. Infested with scoundrels and psychopaths, that needs to be extriminated
Tp it is blessings. Many blessings for me. At least, x corrupt lagi. Org kata jus give power to an honest man ….nanti …
Lagipun, unless ur the biggest of boss, one is practically a slave ..mana ada sgt life work balance ..
Org kate u just get your youth once ..it seems like I’ve had mine squandered, having nothing to show …materially..
But I was brave, I thought I led a good, almost virtuous purposeful life ..so, gettip up, hauling back on my two feet, living for what I believe, was survival ..not iust surviving for th sake of surviving..In some silly way, I felt contented, bordering on silly proudness ..of the bold and often stupid decisions I made in the face of terror, setbacks and tribulations..one could say, I had my heads on my shoulders and most importantly, my heart, I feel, was in the so called right place ..
I feel like I was a warrior of sorts ..haha ..
Nobody is patting my back, soothing and calming me, you did good, you were brave in the face of evil ..even my parents didn’t lived up to my expectations..but they were only my parents officially for a month, I don’t expect much ..
It was for all of us, something we do for ourselves..for our own conscience and most if all, happiness
Just because i won the Asia Pacific Cup. People think I’m a bloody genius. People kata it’s nothing n shrug it off but some are jealous sbb although it was just probably luck, they wouldn’t know if they could be ever that good in front of Nobel laureate and reps from Oxford, Cambridge, Harvard, Stanford and etc..they were jealous ..
Soo jealous that it became a curse for me. I guess, it’s not the biggest of award to be envious pun, but I get it, klau lg besar, lagi besarlah ujian n jealousy nya. Semua goes through this, sblm menang strugel, lepas mnang pun strugel. Dunya sgt
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