I am not directly related to Puteri Saadong, although we are both Jembal. My line came from one of her uncle, who became king after Raja Loyor died. It’s true, Raja Loyor married the last of the Pattani Ratu Pelangi. Ratu Kuning to be exact, but Puteri Saadong’s line ended with her. At least that’s what I gather from the Jembal family tree.
If it is true that my line came from the less glamourised Raja Omar, also son of Raja Sakti 1, I guess it’s okay. I saw his grave stone, suppossedly gifted by the Emperor of China himself. He died back in the 17th century I think. It is said, okay, just by my uncle, that unbeknownst to popular culture, the reign of Sultan Omar was not unlike Pax Romana, with paddy fields that stretched to the horizons abounded, some survived to this day, though no longer something we can claim. Also not known to popular culture is that, thanks too to Cik Sri, like the infamous Melaka, we also have burstling ports famous the world over, to a certain point.
I mean, what is the meaning that, when I was younger, the back of my hair stood up anytime I read or hear Cik Siti Wan Kembang and Puteri Saadong’s names? It only when I was thirteen that I knew I was related to them,somehow. We know they did not have any progenies of their own, so far. I have some Srivijayan, Champa, Sunda- Galuh blood in me, yup some Delhi Sultanate ( Deccan katenya), dan Persia juga. Similar to them.
Why did their names made me feel … electrified ..close? Well, those were my younger days. When I grew older, less innocent perhaps, I had one vision which I could pinpoint that relates to CSWK somehow. We were at a stone hewn balcony, dark grey, buish black, is that you call volcanic?, it was dusk, but it was already dark. Overlooking ahead of us was a vast forest, with each trees having a kind of a golden glow or spark at the centre of it’s bark. I thought she told me, or said to no one that, this is where we get our energy from.
I remembered she was wearing something red, but it was always a glimpse, and I am scared of forcing myself to describe it or her ..maybe some would call it day dream and other entities trying to misled me ..
I remembered that my ancestors emblem is a stag. Whereas CSWK, who govern her own territory is known for her hind,or female deer as her signia. Sigils.
Both animals, have deep spiritual meanings and relations with nature. Knowing the wondrous feats associated to both of them, and a few other family members, by the will of God, I wonder, if we will ever get to witness such wonders again.
I am not burdened by my visions. Its just like dreams, normal. And I am a normal person. Sometimes, everyone of us can have intuitions and dreams that may or may not have deeper meanings. Same here. It’s just that, at times I thought I couls summon the vision. But me, I have no use, selfish use of it. More so, knowing that I lack skills and more still ibadah, it may have even left me before I know it. But when it graced upon me, I was somehow convinced of God’s multitude’s grace and how He shows mercy. Even He, does not ever leave his creation truly defenseless and clueless …but if only, if only the said creations can fully make use of the gifts and breaks given, not wasting it …cause wasting it is really bad. Okay, moving on …
Animals. Squirrels. They do make appearances at opportune times to me. My vision showed me wolves and Ravens, and for quite some time a while back, crows, not ravens, followed me around. I am not kidding, this one time, around 5 AM, I came home from cyber cafe and the crow will hop from one tree to another, following me otw home. The other time, you get my drift ..
Then I saw the eccentric BBC drama that didn’t get continued, Mr Norell and Mr Strange, looove the book ( Booker prize winner or smthg kan! …in the early series ada something about Ravens ..I tried to find meanings to it to relate..
But mine was crows ..huhu..
Out of all friends who ridiculed me, no one was more believing and comforting as Librarian X. He told me that something must be done, people seems to think stories like Puteri Saadong is just a mere myth.
Right, and then, what am I then?
He said, there need to be more awareness in this matter, perhaps a museum. Tall order much?
Librarian X told me that there are a lot of courageous people but sadly they were not so smart. He thinks I might embodies both. Tall order?
I really really like to see and prod him with questions after questions. He is elusive as of now. Unreachable. Too many times I just didn’t have the right questions, let down indeed.
I love these things. I dunnow. It’s as if, I should be always thankful for the luck of being born as who I am. Warts and all.
Yup. It was said that the great Sri Vijayan Maharaja Sanjaya was the one who created the Wau, some said it was actually contained his battle plans. Some said it signified his kingdoms …in all the world, there’s nothing like the Wau we see in Kelantan.
For me, I think, maybe it signify that to fly, all the components, all his constituents, system and beliefs, must be as one. Together, they can soar high. Not together, they will fall apart.
The Wau is the entire Nusantara and more. He did put more kingdom in the federation, Madagascar, some part of the Indian and African continent …some would say so..
But, my heart says that before all that, nusantara is closer than a family. Why must we bicker, we should fly, together.
Librarian X told me that people of old always prays for their offsprings for eternal happiness but they were also known to curse, but alwas, always limited to seven generations. I asked him about Puteri Saadong’s curse, talked non challantly in my mom’s circle but not really known to the larger public.
It made sense probably, why out of the blue, beyond anyone’s close to me’s expectation, that I would win the great honour of bringing home the Asia Pacific Cup, after presenting it in front of distinguised row of judges such as Nobel Laureate winner, reps of universities such Oxford, Cambridge, Stanford, Harvard, NY Times and etc.
Pic credit to Raku Inoue, ThisisColassal.com